Renewed

I've been in a rut lately.  Just going through the motions of the day to day when suddenly days, then weeks, then months have slipped by and I'm not really sure where they went.  Or, more importantly, what I've accomplished - other than the daily routine of work, school, dinner, dishes, family time, bath, bed, rinse & repeat.  Not in a bad way.  Just...status quo.  More days than not it feels like Drew & I are walking parallel paths instead of intersecting.  And that's not where I want to be.

Somehow, over the past week, things seemed to realign themselves.

I have two somewhat last-minute business trips coming up in the next month.  As much as I dread being away from the boys, I'd be lying if I said I didn't enjoy the alone time, too.  My best friend is coming home for a visit and I've missed her terribly.  But most importantly, Drew & I have finally scheduled some time just for us.

It started small and gradually got bigger.  A day off to play golf together, a few lunch dates, actually staying awake to have a conversation after Jackson finally turns in for the night.  Then, on a total whim, we looked at a new house south of town on 20 acres of land - which resulted in all sorts of conversations about our goals and plans for the future.  We decided not to buy it, but it was a fun exercise to go through nonetheless.  And it gets even better.  Thanks to Drew's Mom we will soon get an entire weekend to ourselves while Jackson spends some one-on-one time with his Gram.  Would you believe we have never had a weekend alone in our own house since Jack was born?  We've been kid free in Denver, Washington DC and Palm Springs, but never once at home.  On top of that, we decided to take a short vacation to Colorado and will be spending one night of our trip in the mountains while Jack stays in the city with his Nana & Papa.  How dreamy does this look:

And the fact that Jackson will get to spend quality time with his grandparents means I don't even feel guilty about taking the time just for us - something I often struggle with as a working mom.  In fact, I couldn't be more excited.

I guess the lesson I'm learning is that not only is it okay to take time for yourself and your relationship - it's important to.  It's of no fault of anyone, but despite the fact that I live with Drew and sleep beside him every night, I think I've missed him.  It didn't take much to get back on track, but it's enough to make me feel whole again. 

And that's a much better place to be.